the sound and the fury

sent by an old friend of mine: moments - jorge luis borges

“If I were able to live my life again,
next time I would try to make more mistakes.
I would not try to be so perfect. I would be more relaxed.
I would be much more foolish than I have been. In fact,
I would take very few things seriously.
I would be much less sanitary.
I would run more risks. I would take more trips,
I would contemplate more sunsets,
I would climb more mountains,
I would swim more rivers.
I would go to more places I have never visited.
I would eat more ice cream and fewer beans.
I would have more real problems, fewer imaginary ones.
I was one of these people who lived prudently
and prolifically every moment of his life.
Certainly I had moments of great happiness:
Don’t let the present slip away.
I was one of those who never went anywhere
without a thermometer, a hot water bottle,
an umbrella, and a parachute.
If I could live over again,
I would go barefoot, beginning
in early spring
and would continue so until the end of autumn.
I would take more turns on the merry-go-round.
I would watch more dawns
And play with more children,
if I once again had a life ahead of me.
But, you see, I am eighty-five
and I know that I am dying.”

based on a l'esprit de l'escalier story: conviction

anyonecantakeaphoto:

it really annoys me when people have zero or repeatedly no conviction, or always overturn what they say they are going to do. from: oh, i’ll go for a run, i want to lose some weight, to, i want to stop smoking, to, i’ll give you a lift - 15 minutes, 15 hours, a couple of days down the line and suddenly it no longer matters.

it’s the same with new year’s resolutions. i simply do not understand that concept. if you truly wanted to change something about yourself, you wouldn’t need a cop-out excuse to motivate you - the motivation would already be inside you.

that is purely a personal thing, and at least you can have jurisdiction over your own actions. but when people ‘commit’ to something that affects someone else, like a promise, or an enabling move, the amount of times people  renege on things makes me almost vitriolic. of course, mitigating circumstances can always come into play, but you always know the sort of people whose offers you cannot rely upon. 

you would think that if you make an offer to someone that they would then depend upon, that you then have a moral obligation to fulfil it. otherwise, who the hell are you kidding in taking out such a thing in the first place? 

i guess it’s my own fault for having such a suffocating moral code, but why can’t people police their own selfish ways properly? it’s no wonder i’m surprised when i come across genuine people these days.

(Source: foonyroo)

perhaps perhaps perhaps 

summer summer summer